lemon crush

my latest crush has disappointed me.

as katherine willows told warrick brown on csi after his surprise marriage: part of the joy in having a fantasy is that there's a possibility it will come true. it sucks when they are involved in a serious relationship, get married or have babies. then you know your chances are null.

i will not reveal my former crush's name, but man...i'm hurting right now. what i've read about him today may be a rumor. but i don't think it is. what disappoints me is that i thought he was waiting for his match and i identified with that, but now i realize he may have settled. not settled down but settled for good enough. if that's the case, then i'm sorry he surrendered like that.

i could just wrack it up to him being a flaky musician, but i don't want to do that. it's not fair to make such generalizations, especially when i've never met the man.

actually, it's my fault. i keep thrusting these superhuman powers upon mere mortals. no, i keep thrusting the standards i have for myself on others. that's not fair, either.

this latest let down won't keep me from supporting his band or buying their albums in the future. i still think he's an outstanding musician. hey, i'm still a prince fan after all!